yes, you’ll be my escape from all the problems on the east coast, but i need you. i need the sun, the heat, your beautiful sunsets, and the desert. i need a new start. i went to a college where i already knew people and was close to home. i need to live out of my sheltered little bubble. but most of all, i need an adventure, and that is what you will certainly be.

you know, when the bad stuff hits you, it really does all hit you at once. i suppose this is what makes people stronger. i can only hope that i get away from all of this and learn from these mistakes. although, i can’t believe that you would stoop that low to kick me when i’m already down after all that we’ve been through in the past 7 years. no, there isn’t a good time to say stuff like that, but really… there is so much wrong with our friendship that makes me think there’s no point to it anymore. i’ll survive without you.

i doubt i will actually be sleeping tonight, so sorry if i fill up your dashboard with text entries that don’t make sense unless you really know a lot about what’s going on in my life. if you don’t, let’s be friends. i’ll talk to anyone!

do you remember the time we sat in 3 hours of traffic to drive to baltimore? i do. i remember how we were stuck listening to hey monday the whole time and i wanted to strangle you, but i still sang along. i remember how glad i was that you told me to bring a pair of pants because it was cold. i remember how mad i was at you later that night. i remember arguing over mangoes. i remember how delicious those crab cakes were, and i could really go for one right now. but the thing i remember most from that night is that look of disappointment on your face because you always knew exactly what i was thinking. it was one of your many skills when it came to me, along with always knowing exactly what to say. i don’t know if it will ever be the same, but i’m sorry things ended up the way they did. i never did express how much i cared about you in the right way. i hope you forgive me someday.